Tiny Finger Point Hand With Heart pandaroma: January 2015

11 January 2015


I often question myself, "are you really happy?" emphasize the 'really' word. I don't really think so...
Recently when I'm with my friends, I feel tension filling in the air, not to mention we may seem close in physical, but we're actually far away in heart.

Is smiling while taking selfie is a prove that you're close to your selfie buddy? No. That's not true. You may see many of them posing while taking pictures, but are they close? Will their selfie buddy helps them/ comfort them when they're down in the dumps? Or is it just as they wanted to share their joys and isolate them when they need help?

What a realistic world //

I think the length of a relationship (friendship) doesn't matters. For example, you knew X since you're in primary school, but you guys just didn't befriend. Consider X as your acquaintance. So, friendship is something which you guys understand each other and are comfortable even if you guys didn't talk.

Yep, I may be having some kind of hearing problem, but i could identify those who is real or is fake by just simply be aware of their attitude. People who sticks to you like gum because you get great grades and left you behind because your grades failed are those typical fakers. So much of them that i have already bored by watching them.

They badmouthed me. I know that well, just faking not to hear those irritating childish words spurred from those hypocrites. Like I care. That's your opinion. I know I had bad hearing. That's my problem. Who are you to judge me. You're not even perfect, me too. How we react to such sarcastic words will be our karma.

Maybe this is kinda like a gift to me, to be able to identify the good from the bad... or am i just seeking evil behind every rock? Not really. 当局者迷,旁观者清。I'm the latter.

I supposed.

I had no idea how did I passed my primary school life. A life, following a particular friend behind all the time, that she grew annoyed. By reminiscing that, I think I'm a stupid follower back to those days.
All I remembered was- it was terrible. But at year 6, I started to meet some friends that had painted some colours in my once-it-was-monochrome life. There's some of my close friends who transferred to other schools...

Always remember, you cannot treat them as your priority when they treat you as their option. True friends are ohana. Ohana means family, and family means no one is left behind. My favourite quote from Lilo and Stitch.